I had two days of very focused practice. Yesterday Mara stopped by and attacked. Now I feel shame, self-disgust, paranoia and anger. Picking up. Brushing off. Another step. Am I close to real change, or just creating drama to kid myself?
Reading about the dark night of the soul convinces me I may be near real change.
Thinking I may be near real change convinces me I'm fooling myself.
This is where a teacher/guide would be handy. Gotta find me one of those.
Bows to all you good people.
1 week ago