Tuesday, May 26, 2009


My father in law passed away. I saw him struggling with ill health in a recovery hospital bed a week ago, dealing with DNR's and interpreting curative from palliative procedures. I saw 'him' in the hospice hospital on Friday, heaving for breath, essentially unconscious. And then Saturday, a well assembled collection of organic molecules was stone still in the hospice bed, with no spark of life. No one was gone, no one was here. The ice has melted and fallen back into the stream. Now begins a long process of legal and customeray affairs that is definitely certain there was someone unique there. But that was you and that was me. We arise, pop out a vagina, and muck about until we're tossed in the ground to feed the worms. What a comedy! Might as well just sit.


Tallis Grayson said...

My condolences on the loss of your father in law.

Lauren said...

Thanks, Tallis.

Harry said...

Sorry to hear this news, Lauren.

Wishing your family well at this time,


Jordan said...

My condolences for you and your family Lauren.

Barry said...


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May you and your family find peace and joy through this experience.


Uku said...

My condolences for you and for your family, all the best, Lauren. Gassho.

Jeremy said...

many good thoughts with you and yours. gassho

Peter said...


Sorry to hear the sad news.
I hope you and your family are doing okay.

Best wishes,

The Lay Practitioner said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your loss. Sending well wishes to you and your family. Sorry I flaked on my offer to send you some stuff for Jukai.

I’m still trying to figure out if my practice recently “fell apart” because my life “fell apart” (at least it felt that way) or if my life “fell apart” because my practice “fell apart”.

The new blog is just meaningful quotes, at least for me. I have realized that, at least for now, I need to just sit down and shut up.

Keep on sitting.